life experiences - my authentic self - chatter from my head
I constantly worry about the lack of study I have done - I have no certificates on my wall - oh, sorry, I have one that I received a few weeks ago - reiki 1. And sometimes because of this lack of certificates hanging on my wall, I feel somewhat umm - not good enough or not experienced enough.
But yesterday - I was at a meditation class and started to chat with a girl- just everyday stuff and I asked her what she did. She said she was a counsellor - being very interested I innocently asked what kind of counsellor and she replied quite abruptly - 'one with alot of experience.' This girl was maybe 15 years younger than me and out of the blue I realized I am very experienced in life. very, very experienced. I have life training.
I could say I have degree in collecting vintage as I have been collecting since I was about 10, maybe younger. This could be about being experienced in vintage housekeeping ways as I have been doing that for 31 years! - but this is not what this post is about.
I have a 'degree' in life experiences and learning from very knowledgeable people - namely my paternal grandpa who taught me alot about organic gardening. I like to help people with what I know or have experienced. I can't prescribe herbal medicine but I can help them with what herbs do what - all from life experience and my grandpa's knowledge. I can't counsell anyone professionally about anything but I can be compassionate and supportive whenever they go through the death of a spouse, a divorce, losing a baby mid term, cancer and many others that I won't even go into here. I can't do it professionally because I don't have a piece of paper in a frame hanging on my wall.
My spiritual journey has been quite a journey too - being born into a Church of England family - doing a full year course of seventh day adventist when I was 13 (another story) and searching til I converted to Catholicism 15 years ago and still searching right now - finding out lots and lots. Being very interested in the 'olde religion' as some call it.
So today, I am going to design myself two certificates. one from the Cecil Strummey Noble school of organic and herbal gardening and the second from the school of life experiences. I am going to hang them on my wall to remind myself that I don't have to study to be able to be 'good enough'