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daily musings of a vintage addict * I am totally obsessed with all things vintage * trying to keep up with my past...and sometimes ordinary everyday life

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Location: Culburra Beach , NSW, Australia

I live in Australia, my ancestry is in Cornwall. a Celt. a hedgewitch of sorts. I am an Earth Healer. I wear upcycled clothes, patchouli oil and Redback boots. A gypsy. An eccentric. a mystic. I am a searcher, a seeker, a pilgrim on Earth. I serve my guests, tea from an old silver teapot. I love Vervain, yarrow, chamomile & mint. I love to dream, to walk and to wonder

Plan ahead and dream of all the beautiful things that life has to offer

March 19, 2006

today I am a survivor

not only is it my mum's birthday and our anniversary but today is the anniversary of the day that I was told that I had cancer. 5 years ago!
what a horrible thing cancer is. I remember clearly the phone call. "Robyn, we have found cancer" - just like that. I was alone. I collapsed on the ground in a heap. I just felt so alone, lost, hysterical. Who would look after my kids? I wanted to grow old with my husband. Why me ? I couldn't believe that this was happening. I was stunned , I wanted someone to take the pain in my heart away, to make it all better. to tell me that it was a bad dream
Why me ?
I had to have radiation treatment - which was the absolute pits but it eventually ended and I went on to heal. The psychological effects last a long time and lots of counselling.
I looked online and found wonderful support at Hystersisters*cancer concerns -
I could post there and within minutes I had a reply from someone who knew just what I was going through. Some of these women, I still keep in contact with today. They are my good friends.
I think the penny dropped for me the day I was chatting to my cancer counsellor and she asked me what I was afraid of - my answer was that I was so scared of my cancer coming back - her reply - there is no guarantee that it won't come back but nor is there a guarantee that you won't walk out this door and be hit by a bus. I carry that with my everyday.
Life goes on and one day - you realize you are pretty well normal (I said nearly) - I have my days of waking in a cold sweat and reliving all the treatments but then I remember how lucky I am. Then, one day, I wake up and it is 5 years since diagnosis. What a wonderful day, today is!
today - I am grateful for being a cancer survivor.

23 Comments:

Blogger Sharon said...

Congratulations miss robyn with love and hugs...

10:30 am  
Blogger Amy said...

That's a very scary experience. My mother had a cancer scare too and my grandmother died of liver cancer. Such a horrible illness...

11:55 am  
Blogger berriehead said...

I'm so glad you made it! I lived all of those feelings you speak of with my mama when she fought her breast cancer...it will be 3 years in May for her since her diagnosis. xoxo

12:09 pm  
Blogger Peggy said...

I am so happy to read you have made the 5 yr mark! I wake up at night scared that I will get cancer after losing a mother, sister and dad to cancer but as you posted I could also get hit by a bus. Need to think about that and stop worrying so much. Hugs my friend

12:57 pm  
Blogger Gina E. said...

Congratulations on your survival, your anniversary and your Mum's birthday -lol!

1:19 pm  
Blogger Rosa said...

Wow, what an anniversary indeed. I'm happy to hear you're still healing. I went through a hysterectomy and used hystersisters.com too. It was a great help to have someone going through exactly the same thing, I hear you!

3:33 pm  
Blogger Tongue in Cheek Antiques said...

Amen Sister! What a glorious day it is to wake up, have five years pass and know that Cancer is behind you!!!

5:57 pm  
Blogger Cookie said...

Congratulations on five years cancer free Dear Robyn. Wishing you continued good health and happiness and Happy Anniversary with Joe. Hugsss

8:56 pm  
Blogger Flossy said...

Robyn, I'm grateful you are a survivor too - you have made a lovely impact in my life in the short time I have known you, and today I wish for you many, many more blissful years with Joe.

Much love xxx

9:41 pm  
Blogger Connie and Rob said...

I am so happy for you! Keep up the good work.

All the best to you Robyn.
Hugs,
Connie

10:24 pm  
Blogger Nicole said...

Oh Ms*Robyn, I am surrounded by such wonderous women. If you can do it... then so can I. I am determined to follow in your path and search for positive in all that is nagative. Much love xox

11:50 pm  
Blogger Dawn said...

Hystersisters was a lifeline for me when I had my hyst almost 6 years ago. Glad you are a survivor. That is something to celebrate!!

7:44 am  
Blogger Kali said...

Blessings to you sweet friend ~ may the days roll on, and turn into months and many, many long years!!!
You are a friend and an inspiration, and I wish you the best that life has to offer :)
Love Ya!

8:11 am  
Blogger Mindy said...

Congratulations to you dear Robyn...you are a survivor!!! Life is indeed good!! Blessings to you...xo

11:57 am  
Blogger dolly said...

sending you love Ms*R. You must have been through times that I cannot imagine. I often fear i will get ill and wonder what will happen to my kids ~ you have had the reality of that feeling, I am so glad you made it through.

hugs dollx

p.s. I will be away from the computer for a while and I have a new home ~ my new address is

vintagedaydreams.blogspot.com


love to you dollx

12:16 pm  
Blogger Garden girl said...

you have given me hope - as today my mum is having a scan to see if she has cancer...I am v worried. She lives in the uk so it makes it double hard. with your post like this, you have given so many people hope and proof that you can survive!!
thank you robyn for this positive post.

12:17 pm  
Blogger melissa said...

And thank you so much for my sweet birthday card...and the cut-outs will definitely be going inside my journal. Already stuck them in there...just need to glue them!

Thanks sweetie!

12:20 pm  
Blogger Calidore said...

Happy fifth anniversary Ms Robyn. Loving thoughts are being sent your way.

Hugs

8:37 pm  
Blogger Lady Laurie said...

Dear Robyn,
Just thanking God that you are alright now~sending angel hugs your way!

2:15 am  
Blogger HomemakerAng said...

and we are so happy you are here and healed xoxox

12:29 am  
Blogger Maggie Ann said...

I'm glad for you Robyn...life is the most precious gift, yet how we take it for granted. All thanks to God...blessings to you dear!

4:33 am  
Blogger juliebean said...

you are such a strong survivor. a true inspiration for all of us! stay strong!! i'm so glad you have been successful with your experience. my father died last may of cancer, within a month of diagnosis. it is a horrible disease. i'm so very glad you are doing so very well!!! thoughts/prayers...

6:42 am  
Blogger Kerri said...

Congratulations to you Robyn! What a horrible ordeal to go through, but no doubt you came out of it stronger, wiser and an inspiration and encouragement to others. Blessings to you.

9:06 am  

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