today I am a survivor
not only is it my mum's birthday and our anniversary but today is the anniversary of the day that I was told that I had cancer. 5 years ago!
what a horrible thing cancer is. I remember clearly the phone call. "Robyn, we have found cancer" - just like that. I was alone. I collapsed on the ground in a heap. I just felt so alone, lost, hysterical. Who would look after my kids? I wanted to grow old with my husband. Why me ? I couldn't believe that this was happening. I was stunned , I wanted someone to take the pain in my heart away, to make it all better. to tell me that it was a bad dream
Why me ?
I had to have radiation treatment - which was the absolute pits but it eventually ended and I went on to heal. The psychological effects last a long time and lots of counselling.
I looked online and found wonderful support at Hystersisters*cancer concerns -
I could post there and within minutes I had a reply from someone who knew just what I was going through. Some of these women, I still keep in contact with today. They are my good friends.
I think the penny dropped for me the day I was chatting to my cancer counsellor and she asked me what I was afraid of - my answer was that I was so scared of my cancer coming back - her reply - there is no guarantee that it won't come back but nor is there a guarantee that you won't walk out this door and be hit by a bus. I carry that with my everyday.
Life goes on and one day - you realize you are pretty well normal (I said nearly) - I have my days of waking in a cold sweat and reliving all the treatments but then I remember how lucky I am. Then, one day, I wake up and it is 5 years since diagnosis. What a wonderful day, today is!
today - I am grateful for being a cancer survivor.
posted by Miss Robyn | 8:20 am
19 Comments:
Congratulations miss robyn with love and hugs...
That's a very scary experience. My mother had a cancer scare too and my grandmother died of liver cancer. Such a horrible illness...
I am so happy to read you have made the 5 yr mark! I wake up at night scared that I will get cancer after losing a mother, sister and dad to cancer but as you posted I could also get hit by a bus. Need to think about that and stop worrying so much. Hugs my friend
Congratulations on your survival, your anniversary and your Mum's birthday -lol!
Wow, what an anniversary indeed. I'm happy to hear you're still healing. I went through a hysterectomy and used hystersisters.com too. It was a great help to have someone going through exactly the same thing, I hear you!
Amen Sister! What a glorious day it is to wake up, have five years pass and know that Cancer is behind you!!!
Congratulations on five years cancer free Dear Robyn. Wishing you continued good health and happiness and Happy Anniversary with Joe. Hugsss
Robyn, I'm grateful you are a survivor too - you have made a lovely impact in my life in the short time I have known you, and today I wish for you many, many more blissful years with Joe.
Much love xxx
Hystersisters was a lifeline for me when I had my hyst almost 6 years ago. Glad you are a survivor. That is something to celebrate!!
Blessings to you sweet friend ~ may the days roll on, and turn into months and many, many long years!!!
You are a friend and an inspiration, and I wish you the best that life has to offer :)
Love Ya!
Congratulations to you dear Robyn...you are a survivor!!! Life is indeed good!! Blessings to you...xo
you have given me hope - as today my mum is having a scan to see if she has cancer...I am v worried. She lives in the uk so it makes it double hard. with your post like this, you have given so many people hope and proof that you can survive!!
thank you robyn for this positive post.
And thank you so much for my sweet birthday card...and the cut-outs will definitely be going inside my journal. Already stuck them in there...just need to glue them!
Thanks sweetie!
Happy fifth anniversary Ms Robyn. Loving thoughts are being sent your way.
Hugs
Dear Robyn,
Just thanking God that you are alright now~sending angel hugs your way!
and we are so happy you are here and healed xoxox
I'm glad for you Robyn...life is the most precious gift, yet how we take it for granted. All thanks to God...blessings to you dear!
you are such a strong survivor. a true inspiration for all of us! stay strong!! i'm so glad you have been successful with your experience. my father died last may of cancer, within a month of diagnosis. it is a horrible disease. i'm so very glad you are doing so very well!!! thoughts/prayers...
Congratulations to you Robyn! What a horrible ordeal to go through, but no doubt you came out of it stronger, wiser and an inspiration and encouragement to others. Blessings to you.
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