forgive me
if I have been ditzy the past few days
* but I have been forgetting to take my HRT regularly
and it was hot & humid yesterday which does not make for a very happy ms*robyn....
ya see I take HRT
..yes, I have heard it is bad for you....
but if you ever saw me when I don't take it,
you would be running for the pill to ram down my throat!
I was going to be one of these lucky ladies
who breezed through menopause at around the age of 55 with no problems at all....
maybe treating it herbally if I needed
BUT
life happened
and at age 43
I had to have pelvic radiation which killed the old ovaries overnight.
I woke up screeching like Linda Blair in the exorcist.
I swear, I was frothing at the mouth at times
After a week or so of crying in the garden,
screeching at the poor long suffering soul mate
and sounding like a fishermans wife (apologies to any of you who are married to a fisherman)
*I ran to the Drs and asked (read screamed) her to 'give me the patch'
....that worked for awhile.
Except I was constantly rubbing it on as I was scared stiff it would come off
and I would once again be demented.....
I was going through about 3 a week instead of the one that is recommended.
so off to the Drs again to get an oral pill.
Which has been working ok til the last few weeks
when I have been constantly forgetting to take it regularly
so I have been having my own private summers
& am beginning to feel fuzzy headed,
forgetful,
melancholy
& I guess rabid.
oh and also very sensitive
- little things annoy me
*like how the soul mate is outside at 7am this morning sawing wood with a power saw - just grates on my nerves. I feel like opening the window and well...... you know.
and to top it all of - yesterday, middle of spring we had humidity at 85%. That is just not acceptable!!!!