forgive me
forgive me
if I have been ditzy the past few days
* but I have been forgetting to take my HRT regularly
and it was hot & humid yesterday which does not make for a very happy ms*robyn....
ya see I take HRT
..yes, I have heard it is bad for you....
but if you ever saw me when I don't take it,
you would be running for the pill to ram down my throat!
I was going to be one of these lucky ladies
who breezed through menopause at around the age of 55 with no problems at all....
maybe treating it herbally if I needed
BUT
life happened
and at age 43
I had to have pelvic radiation which killed the old ovaries overnight.
I woke up screeching like Linda Blair in the exorcist.
I swear, I was frothing at the mouth at times
After a week or so of crying in the garden,
screeching at the poor long suffering soul mate
and sounding like a fishermans wife (apologies to any of you who are married to a fisherman)
*I ran to the Drs and asked (read screamed) her to 'give me the patch'
....that worked for awhile.
Except I was constantly rubbing it on as I was scared stiff it would come off
and I would once again be demented.....
I was going through about 3 a week instead of the one that is recommended.
so off to the Drs again to get an oral pill.
Which has been working ok til the last few weeks
when I have been constantly forgetting to take it regularly
so I have been having my own private summers
& am beginning to feel fuzzy headed,
forgetful,
melancholy
& I guess rabid.
oh and also very sensitive
- little things annoy me
*like how the soul mate is outside at 7am this morning sawing wood with a power saw - just grates on my nerves. I feel like opening the window and well...... you know.
and to top it all of - yesterday, middle of spring we had humidity at 85%. That is just not acceptable!!!!
posted by Miss Robyn | 7:58 am
14 Comments:
I had the "surgery" after my youngest daughter was born. I was happy I had it so young (26) and thought I wouldn't go thru the hot flashes or mood swings.... wrong! I still had to take something to get me thru it (hope its over) though I was lucky I got by with herbs for a few years.
Do you know me ms robyn - we could be twins!!!!! My mood swings are extreme, my emotions run at flash point... I feel like a split personality - what doesn't bother me one day, has me screaming like a banshee the next... I can be forgetful, lethargic, grumpy, and irritable all in the same half hour. Sometimes I feel like I view this 'other person' - as though I am standing outside' myself... my poor suffereing P is lovely - he just takes it in his stride and agrees with me what ever... ms robyn I wish I could offer you tea and sympathy... Yes, I know this is a normal part of life - but why oh why do we feel so abnormal while we are going through it...take care :-))
Oh Robyn, I had to laugh because you made it sound so funny, though I'm sure it isn't. I admit I was one of the lucky ones who didn't suffer much of anything other than occasional hot flushes for a few years. (Perhaps I should ask my family - they may not agree, although Sara was the only one at home by then, and I'm sure she thought I was always old and strange.) I remember my mother used to be always opening the window even in the winter. We'd say, "For heavens sake, shut the window we're freezing and we haven't all got your complaint." Oh, how cruel we were.
Gawsh, we women really got the raw end of the stick didn't we? I have no idea what you are going through but rest assured I will one day (well, that's if I make it that far -*fingers crossed*). However, I do know that flushes in the midst of an extremely humid day can't be a bit of fun. You have my complete sympathy. I have terrible period pain every month and perhaps misguidedly have always looked forward to 'the change' as a time of freedom from the monthly cycles - I really have no idea do I. *sighs*
Now, don't forget to take those pills!!!!
the things us women go through, Istill have the joy to come, I keep telling myself maybe I will be one of the lucky ones...
Hope you feeling more like yourself soon
sending you (((hugs)))
Oh poor Robyn...I remember my mum having dreadful migraines and being very bad tempered now and then. In those days, people didn't talk about menopause openly as they do now, so we all suffered Mum's moods in silence, thinking it was brought on by her chronic high blood pressure (and that may have had something to do with it). I was determined not to go down the same road as Mum with my health, so I started reading stuff as far back as my teens. Excruciating monthly cramps sent me first to a male gyno. who said "it's all in the mind with you women - just take these pain killers". My next doctor was a woman, and she examined me, asked a few questions about my lifestyle and gave me a sheet of exercises. "Do them every day" she said, "and I think you will find there will be no more pain". I did as she said, and she was right. I just needed to exercise those particular areas of my pelvic area to cure the pain. As for menopause, when my periods started to become erratic (with no other symptoms) I took a weekend course with a naturopath and 5 other ladies. She explained so much to us about our bodies and the various things that can go wrong, and what we can do to fix them, including following a specific diet. I did everything she told us to do, and I sailed through the menopause with no ill effects at all. I don't know if not having children had anything to do with it, but whatever the reason, I have been very grateful, when I hear about other womens' problems.
Oh my poor Robyn, I feel for you! I'm very close to 43 and can feel the menopause coming, my period is coming in shorter sections and is stronger than ever. I really hope it'll come soon because I suffer under a very painful backache and migraine for a few days every month and pills are helping not longer than an hour, the only thing that helps a bit is laying down in a darkened room with a hot water bottle under the back and under my head and trying to sleep until it's over. I'd so love to get rid off it!! My grandma had the monthly migraine too and it was all over after the menopause. So I can live in hope!
Forget the HRT...you've just had a wedding to go through. That'd make any woman go nuts!
We love you GOOD though! We females got to stick together!
Hope your feeling back in line. I'm still in my child bearing years but have seen how it effects some of the women on my husbands side. Hang in there
Oh geez Robyn...this is too funny,I have just started to feel the symptoms of "the change" this past year ~ and I know just what you mean about your better half! Mine will do little things that just drive me up the wall(but this happens when I am pms~ing as well)~just now the mood swings have gotten worse! Lately I have been really trying to eat better and exercise, don't know if this will have any effect later on!
thinking of you... Perhaps an ice bath is in order?
Sorry to hear you are not feeling the best and you've had an early start into this to boot. I am 58 or soon to be, forget which..honestly. Most women can identify with you in some respect or another of womanly woes. Menopause is trully a bad word, but my Dr. told me its perfectly natural and I would get through just fine, no meds needed. At one point in my visits, I asked him whether his advice was his own opinion or professional. He just laughed. Well Robyn, I am coming along pretty well, occasional 'flushs' and some mood swings, but a couple of years ago were worse...this is mild now. But, each person in different, and there have been times I've wished I would have been a good candidate for HRT...but I'm pretty much through now...I think. My mum sometimes said things that had a negative slant to them and I was supposed to take it for comfort? a warning? But....I think its wonderful that you are getting lots of loving comments from your blog sisters on this. We've either all been there or are there now, or its coming. Diet and exercise do make a big improvement for me. Really big. So why did I just eat handfuls of candy corn?? Loving wishs to you ms*robyn for a better tomorrow. You've been through alot lately....good things, but everything takes its toll on the nervous system, for me anyway. Thanks for the post about the collages. I always worry just a little, it won't arrive and then what!
thanks for all the posts, ladies xx
not taking HRT was not an option for me - my oncologist ordered it because I went through instant menopause overnight. my ovaries are dead as a door nail. so today, I feel better, once I get those magic pills into my system I am what I call normal as can be
Sorry i haven't replied to your email - I'll email you my details tomorrow! The christmas card swap sounds good, how does it all work?
Take care :)
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