off to the infirmary
on Wednesday - my soul mate - who actually does have a name *Joe* - is off to hospital. He has had really bad pain in his abdomen for awhile now and ultrasound has shown a small hernia - I have told him and told him not to do the heavy lifting but .... so he has to have it mended. And friends I am a little worried. You see, he is my rock and I am sometimes very impatient with him and get frustrated with him too. I am a hard person to live with, believe me and it is even worse since 'the menopause' reared its ugly head. I can sometimes be 'a nasty piece of works' as my grandma would say - and my gorgeous darling soul mate is the brunt of all of this. I love him to death - you know what I mean. He sat by me when I was diagnosed with the cancer and every single day for 5 weeks he came to the cancer clinic for my radiation and then when I had to go have more overnight - he sat at the door, looking in through the glass * no one was allowed near me for 17hours due to radiation exposure. He held my hand as I cried. And how do I repay him? by being impatient - I feel bad. Like when you are cranky with your children and they go off to bed - then you start feeling guilty about being a bad mother, so you vow and declare right there and then that tomorrow you will be nice to them to make up for it. Does anyone know what I am meaning here ? Or am I the only one
posted by Miss Robyn | 10:41 am
16 Comments:
Oh Robyn, you are so not the only one who feels this way! Joe will be fine, and you are you. He loves you for just who you are and how you are.
When he is out of hospital, you will be fussing around and making sure he is comfortable and well-looked after, I know. And he knows how much you love him. You show him in so many ways. These are things I just know :)
Hugs to you and love and luck to Joe xx
Sorry to tell you Robyn - you don't have a monopoly on feeling guilty. No, you're just not that unique...lol. We all go through that stage time and again. Even now that my children are grown up I sometimes wonder if all they remember about me is when I was cranky with them. I sure hope it isn't, because I can't do much about it now.
I hope everything goes well with Joe's operation. You can do your penance by being super nice to him during his convalescence.
Hope your husband's surgery goes really well, and that he will have a speedy recovery. It sounds like you have a gem there!
So sorry Ms Robyn, both him and you are in my prayers and thoughts...hope he is on the up and up now.
You are certainly *not* the only one! I'm sure that we are all guilty of it at one time or another, and more often than not as well. It's just a part of the everyday. Of course you will be there for him and looking after him just like he looked after you, and I'm positive he knows it.
I do know how you feel - I often think myself a whiney piece of work that demands more of her mate than what she deserves. But come to the crunch and I'll defend him with all the strength that is in me. It's all about give and take, sharing and trust and love, you know?
Now, stop beating yourself up about being human and focus those energies on getting your partner well! My thoughts are with you both.
You made my eyes fill up with tears! Illness and healing, loving and faith!
Robyn be easy on yourself, love knows no bounds. It is yours not because you are "good" or "impatient" or "happy" or "raging with menopause." Love is there trusting and believing. You have it with Joe, and you share it with many of us cyber friends!
My prayers are for you and Joe today.
Gosh you hit the proverbial nail on the head time after time, Ms Robyn! Don't all us girls go through this with the one we love the most??!! I drive Ken nuts sometimes, I can see the way he looks at me, and I think oh God, I'm going to lose him over this...but his Mum always tells me that she sees the way he looks at me when I'm not looking at him, and there is no doubt in her mind how much he loves me. Whatever happens on a day-to-day basis, when the chips are down, we drop everything to be there for our soul mates. Give Joe hugs from all of us here, and you look after yourself too.
It's all a journey, you travel together. Up steep exhausting hills and down into flat beautiful plains. But, holding each other's hand tightly, you reach your destination, together.
All will be well.
awww.... good thoughts and postive vibes coming your way for soul mate.
Your not the only one though robyn who is hard to live with, and menopause is just the ghastly icing on the cake as it were..just ask my dh LOL....hope all goes well for soul mate, and I get the feeling he does know how much you do love and care for him!!!
No you are not alone! I second everything the others have said! My Fingers are crossed for Joe that he'll be okay! Hugs to you xox
I'll be thinking of you and Joe - I'm sure he'll be fine in no time :-)
Take care hon,
Please don't fret so.You are only feeling this way because you're worried and you're only worried because you care so deeply.We all feel guilty especially when the dreaded hormones rear their ugly heads!You will both be in my thoughts and prayers this week.
Hi Im a regular reader of Amy's
I am praying for you and your hubby
may God restore him to his full health and I pray that He comforts you as you face this ordeal together. hugs
..been here myself with the guilt also! Many well wishes and prayers for your Joe to have a speedy recovery...hugs to you dear Robyn!!
Dear ms*robyn ~ this post and comments has left me all teary eyed!
Through all your ups and downs, you have each other to lean on...none of us are perfect, and I bet that Joe loves you just the way you are!
We all get the guilts, especially most Mothers, but when it's all said and done, or husband and children love us for us.
Best wishes to your darling for tomorrow...he will be in my prayers, as will you dear friend. xooox.
OF COURSE I AM LIKE THAT AND YOU ARE NOT the only one! I do this alot and I HATE IT! I mean to show love and it comes out as grrrr. Dont beat yourself up, just tell him how much you love him and care, he knows you enough by now to understand. I sure hope things get back to normal and he is out of pain REAL SOON!
xox
homemakerang
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